The gradual slowing down of the growing season gives me time to pause for thought.
There is lots that I could be doing – always! – but I get to the allotment and potter. Wander around, pick a few beans here and a few overripe tomatoes there.
Sit in the sun, when it is out… perhaps writing this.
Gather jugs full of rich and complex flowers – glowing with colours to share with friends.
My body wants me to slow down too. I feel tired earlier in the afternoon. But honestly, my work load and generally barmy life dictate otherwise. So I want to assess my energy needs too.
I have been interested in the idea of fasting for some time. I watched some of the TV programmes about it, such as ‘Trust Me I’m a Doctor’ which explained a lot of the more recent research in this field. I find it fascinating and exciting.
In the past, I have taught cookery classes and run courses, including putting more value on good, basic foods. Learning about different ways to eat and nourish our bodies. Often this includes far more traditional ways of eating than the modern, western diet that many of us are used to.
Feeding our bodies with what they really need to thrive.
Looking at long past history, and modern science, occasional fasting in a variety of ways can help our bodies to heal and grow strong. A bit of rest and recuperation for our beleaguered digestive system.
I really want to give it a go. But I procrastinate.
( To be fair, I procrastinate about most things in life. It is my default mode. I am extremely good a being indecisive.)
I have lived on ‘Stock’ for several days at a time before. It is the start of the GAPS diet healing protocol. I found it relatively easy and extremely soothing for my digestion.
But that was years ago and I feel much more well now. Is that what puts me off?
Trying to work it out in my mind, I am aware that I dislike feeling hungry. I know that when I haven’t eaten for a while I generally have more energy and often feel more focused and clear headed. Perhaps that is why I get up early and get a lot done – I haven’t had any food in the night!
During the day, I find feeling hungry or empty very similar to feeling anxious. Or nervous and upset. Or scared. Or all of the above. The gurgling tummy is distracting and disturbing.
In fact I believe that I often do the opposite – lots of eating when I feel anxious and panicky, in case it is hunger after all…
So perhaps I will wait until I feel relatively calm and stable (hmm….) before I try my next fast.
In the meantime I am reading Michael Mosley’s books – the Fast Diet, and his new one, the Clever Guts Diet – to inspire me. Clear and well written books. Highly recommended.
PS I am rather hoping that ‘going public’ with the idea might encourage me to do it…. if only so I can write another blog on how it went! I suspect it is more likely that I will write another blog on procrastination….